It is late... and here I am... once again...! Another interesting day with American... It seems as if Obama decided to take a trip to Chicago thereby shutting down the airport for a number of hours on one of the busiest travel days of the year... Interesting...It is funny to me how people react to things they have no control over... Very Very few are just "okay " with it..Most are angry, frustrated,and all those emotions that go along with losing control of our situation.
I have learned to just sit back and let them vent for the most part... I have learned it does no good to tell them that it is beyond my control... That the snow is not my fault, the mechanical prolems not my doing..I now just sit quietly as they rant and rave...not saying a word until they finally say" Are you there"? At which point I quietly tell them I am here to help them if they indeed need my help..But if they want to continue to complain and yell then I will have to release the call so that I can help others...
This tactic of mine is fairly new.. It is hard not to take it personally when people are yelling , screaming, name calling etc...I use to actually break out in hives on my arms I was so upset by these people..
Now,although some of them can still get under my skin, I have an easier time not taking it personally and putting myself in their shoes...
The other day I was talking of this with one of the Supervisors... How I could not understand how some people no matter how hard you try to explain things they just did not get it.....How you could tell them something five times at least and they still are angry at not understanding...He, The Supervisor then told me I was judgmental...
"Judgmental !?" I said How is it being judgmental when I am explaining this time and time again and they are not UNDERSTANDING ME? He quietly told me that some people really just don't get it...That they don't understand things like we do ...and for me to get frustrated with them was being judgmental...
Wow...what a slap to the face that was to me... But he was so right!
So... that is my goal...add that to my list of daily sins... I am judgmental... I don't want to be!
Lord help me!!!
My friend Beth that works with me tells me I am mean on the phone... She laughs at me, and I at her.. for I like to get my conversations done , and stay at business at hand for the most part and she knows all the kids names and birthdays when she gets off the phone...(sorry Beth if you are reading this... but you know it is true..!) Ilove Beth... she is awesome... Don't get to see her much at all since we both work from home, and we don't have to go into the office often.. But I enjoy sitting next to her when we are there... She has such a calming spirit about her.(she is LDS...funny out of all the people there we gravitated to each other!)
I never thought of myself as judgmental...before...But he ...some stranger for the most part...(I only have talked to him on the phone a handful of times in the almost four years I have been at home) was quick to point it out in a hurry....!
But as I thought about it... it has become clear to me...I am not judgmental in the way that I think a person should look or dress a certain way but I am, I suppose, because I think people should react to things the way that I would...
I need alot of prayer...! Please God...go to work inside me and open me up to understand all that I cannot...!!!!!
I wonder... Do we ever get it right...? Life, I mean... Is there ever a day when you don't look back at a moment you wish you could change... a word you wish you could take back...
an opportunity missed...We really do need to realize that we,as Christs followers are setting the stage... that others look to us, that call ourselves Christians...that we have a GREAT big role to fill...It is scary to me to think that the example that I set will be the wrong one.
So...my goal at work now is to treat people that don't understand me, how a NASA scientist would treat me if I didn't understand how a rocket booster operates...I am sure it would be completely foreign to me...
Sorry all you people I have talked to in my bordering on mean voice when you didn't understand me..I truly am.. It is my issue...not yours...I feel horrible!

I have had several people , in my life,ask me how I have overcome so much , and just seem to be at peace with it all..I have to tell you...it has not been easy...as I have told you before.....But, you see... the sorrow in my life I have overcome is the same sorrow that has brought me into my relationship with my one and only Father.. Jesus Christ... the savior of us all...Isn't that amazing? That the bad things actually led me to the most Wonderful...That, my friend is how it works...!It is awesome! The peace I feel in my soul is truly something I wish I could explain in words... But I am afraid I cannot... it is something you must experience yourself. My special time with God, my alone time with him ...those times when I feel him with me, encouraging me when I am down or sharing my Joy at special moments....He wants us to be joyous... If we only knew what he had in store for all of our lives.....
When I was young, an early teen..I was so unhappy... miserable.. I hated my homelife.. I use to run away every chance I got.. The only place I ever felt safe was with my Grandparents... I would just run as fast and hard as I could..wanting to run from the pain.
I remember those times of helplessness...those times of being so alone...
My friend... I have been through it all.. I know what it is to lose faith in your family. I know what it is to be single Mommie trying to make ends meet... I know how it feels to have your heart aching.. knowing that there has to be something more......
I have been there... If you are reading this and feel as if you have no purpose in life, no direction...like you are not good enough.... Please pray ...right now for Jesus to give you direction...Your life will change...I promise...
God is GOOD!!!!!! Life is oh so GOOD! Life is for living!
I was talking to a 92 year old very special lady this eve as she was planning her yearly vacation dates... She is sharper than I... When she volunteered her age as we were talking about dates of travel I think I choked...She is a very special spirit...I asked her how she did it,how she kept her mind sharp and her attitude bright.
She told me two things...
Be Thankful for every day.Live life with a positive attitude... the negative will kill you.
Truer words could not be said..
If we live every day feeling sorry for ourselves, if we allow the ugliness of the world to seep into our lives, we will feel the effects physically, and mentally....it will bring us down.
Of course we all have our good and bad days... But let us all strive to live to be 92 and still traveling the world with a smile on our faces blessing all around us...!
Can we just take the bad,knowing it is for the better good? I know it is hard, especially in the middle of it.. but there is alight at the end of the tunnel... it is our choice...! we can let it bring us down, but what good does that do...really? There is alot we have no control over... ALOT!!! MOST things! But we can control how we react to those situations... And that is what will change your life...
I am going to change the way i\I react to those people on the phone that dont GET IT! I think of God and how probably thinks the same of us everyday... How many times do I have to tell them? Will they never understand? They just DONT GET IT!! But he , in his infinite wisdom does not judge us.
Everyday is a struggle of some sort.. some have it worse than others... but we all have our struggles...believe me... That is God working in our lives.. Can we make him proud?

Defining Moment...Having your kids pitch in to take care of little ones, cook dinner AND clean up because Mommie is back to work...all without being asked... My heart is full.