Hello again.. ..Sorry I missed you yesterday.. It was one of those rare occasions where we decided to throw all caution to the Wind and go see a movie on a school night! We took Savanna to see Shrek .. it was awesome...I love Mike Myers... (Shrek) If you ever want to watch a really funny move rent So I Married An Axe Murderer... one of my favorite movies... It may have been his first... I don't know but I have watched it about nine million and one half times and have every line in it memorized and still laugh every time...But.. you have to be a Mike Myers fan...
I have to share a secret with you.. I am kind of scared right now... When I started writing this blog in my mind it was just going to be about our crazy life.. inside our crazy house with our Welcome to the Zoo sign on the front door...How we get through every day with all the kids and the animals... How we plan our schedules to make sure everyone is where they are supposed to be.... and now with the store keeping that manned at all times, etc etc...
How I fit in time to make candles, and now jewelry for the store...My favorite recipes, the best restaurants in town... (for we do love to eat out...) ...(just got back from Joe Ts!)
But the words just started spilling out of me, and before I knew it I was telling you all my life story... Which is fine... there is alot to tell... But I never ever meant for it to be what is has seemed to turn into...
I have gotten so many messages from people telling me that my stories have inspired them into maybe giving their lives back to God... who have gotten off track...
I am scared...and humbled... I am just a person who has made a ton of mistakes... has taken the wrong path alot of times and just happened to realize one day that Jesus is the only way.
Thank you for taking time out of your precious day to meet with me, here...to listen to me tell you my story.. If it helps you .. then it is God talking to you.. not me...That little voice inside you is the Holy Spirit giving you the conviction that you need to get you back on track.....I will share with you some more of how God through Jesus can fix anything.
Why did Eve have to go and eat that apple...seriously... would not our lives be so much easier if there were no sin...? Oh.. sin HURTS!!! Sure it may feel good in the moment.. but the kickbacks? Oh I can tell you they are not worth it! We can never shed our human nature.. I love it when people tell me , usually people who are far away from God.. that"that is not very Christianlike"...Well I can tell you right now that as long as I am HUMAN and on this earth... I will never be PERFECT! I finally came to the realization many years ago that being happy with yourself through Jesus is being at peace with the world.
If someone wants to judge you... so be it... if someone chooses not to like you ... so be it...Honestly it is usually someone who cant look at themselves in the mirror due to their own sins, that is causing them to judge you...Making everyone you know happy is impossible.....
Be true to yourself... Pray that Jesus can give you the compassion you need to get through each day... stay away from sin... or try to.. a harsh word with a child...maybe a word spoken out the window in a moment of road rage...(who.. me?) a struggle with your husband over who is the boss....(it is very hard for me.. I struggle with this daily)..Mark and I are always struggling over authority... I think I am right.. but think is the key word.. for I am usually NEVER right.. and even if I am.. I need to be in his service ... It is so hard !!!!!That is my daily sin... oh how I pray !!! But then my human flesh takes over and here we go again...It is a good thing that I can admit that I am wrong in the end or there would really be trouble...!He is the smartest man I know.. I am completely right brained... he is completely left brained so we make a good team... Our closet... I should take a picture and post it... His side is perfectly arranged by color and sleevelength...My side..Well....my side stretches out into the middle of the closet onto the stepstool which is covered in clothes so I can't even reach the clothes on the top rack... Who knows what is even up there? ...stretches all the way into my laundry room which is also used as my closet.. No my clothes are NOT sorted by sleeve length.. or color..! Oh he gets mad at me...When are you going to clean the closet... straighten out the kitchen drawers..What...?? You mean its not normal to have five junk drawers? People actually USE those things that you sort out the silverware in inside the drawers?
Oh just ask my friend Ginger if you ever meet her.. She will tell you some stories... we use to work together... I would be out on sales calls and would call her back at the office to find me a quote or something... "where is it?" she would say...(of course her pantry is organized in alphabetical order...!)On my desk I would reply to her horror! Although she loved it when I was not in the office...she would spend all her time trying to clean up my desk to get things filed... I love her so much... even now she tries to teach me and always threatens she is going to do it (the organizing)when she comes to visit.. but she knows better...
anyway... where was I?
All I am saying to you.. is this... We are not perfect... Not one person walking on this earth is.. and you know what? God loves us all the same...We all sin every day. No getting around it.Just try not to make the same mistakes.. Dont judge others like you are judged or you are just like them.As I was talking to God one night..I asked him... what is Heaven like....I love just talking to God.. I talk to him every night.. For as you know.. he is my Father... He told me so...
When I asked him that question there was a rush of euphoria that passed through me.. I can't explain it...it was like your best moment in life times 100 million...It only lasted a moment and was gone.. But I get it.. I GET IT! I want to go there!
I want to be in a place where all my earthly worries are gone.....Where every day is the most Wonderful Day you have ever had...
Dont waste your life.
Dont let others take you down... Sometimes the people you love the most are the ones you have to break free from.....
The thing that helps me the most is just knowing that I am loved by God... even if no one else on this earth loved me... I am loved by him.
Defining Moment...realizing that you can do more than you ever thought you could.
Love to all... Good night!