She is running... a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction.
Good evening friends.... It has been a while... I am another year older, Holidays have come and gone...although it still looks like Christmas around here as Toys are still strewn and decorations still are holding on to their last moment of glory.
Not that they are there on purpose... Just haven't had time to take them down yet.
But all of that can wait for as I was on way home from airport this afternoon this song came on the radio and God spoke to my heart. I stopped on the way home and purchased the Cd and listened to it all the way home....
There is so much to tell you... so much has happened since we last spoke... But my friend that , too , will have to wait for I am to share the good news of Our Lord and Savior.
How I was that girl, the girl running in the wrong direction, The hole inside my soul , bigger than the widest canyon.
The yearning for something.. anything....
How with one persons love, in my darkest time turned my life around.
Shs is in heaven now, but still with me.
How she must rejoice in knowing that she has not only created the person I am, but how I can now share my story.
How God brought her to me, for a short time, but a most Wonderful time. She was my Southern Mama. She loved me unconditionally for a short and sweet time. She was the first person that really validated me as a person. She told me I was beautiful, talented and that God loved me, and that even though I had made alot of mistakes, his Love would cover it all up, his grace would suffice.
It is amazing to me, even now the influence she had on me.
Blondes are Beautiful... Enjoy Life...Shop til you Drop...Yes Pat... I hear you... even now.
You must know that your work in me is miraculous.
That the Love that our Lord has placed in my heart , my love for life, My eagerness to love as much as I can I owe all to you.
When I get to Heaven, please meet me there.
For it is you, my friend that will have gotten me there.
I am so filled with Love for life... I am joyous... I want to shout from the rooftops that God is Great... Look at me!
Don't you see what love can do?
All of us have felt lost, alone, desperate... for something.
This, I know.
Why is it we search for answers.?
There are none.
That my friends, is our test.
If you spend your life trying to find reasons for your pain, it will never leave you.
What if the skies opened up right now and our Lord was standing there. What would we do.
None of us is perfect, God knows our hearts. Truly.
Who else can we turn to other than the one who has promised us everlasting life and forgiveness.
We must know that our battles will never be won. Not on this Earth.
Can you just sit with me for just a minute as my friend.
Can you just close your eyes and ask Jesus to fill you with Peace.
For strength, not for understanding.
Can you let him love you like noone else can.
Let JOY live inside you.
You can live your dream.
If others doubt you, let them.
For God will never doubt you.
Grab hold of this one life that you were given.
Stop running in the wrong direction.
Turn towards God and just take one step.


Lifes Defining Moment.. Jordans 21st Birthday and he is letting my buy him Cowboy Boots...(: