There you go changing my plans again
There you go shifting my sands again
For reasons I don't understand again
Lately I don't have a clue

Just when I start liking what I see
There you go changing my scenery
I never know where you are taking me
But I'm trying just to follow you

Wow... What a week I have had... WE have had... It has been a rough week.. But you know what.. We survived and will continue to LIVE, and to LOVE in spite of the heartache, in spite of the attacks, in spite of all that life may throw in our way...

It is as we feared... Marks Program with Hills has been cut.,.. which means his job will be eliminated.
The Vice President(of his Company) flew in on Tuesday personally to deliver the news to Mark. They have great respect for Mark...(of course.. he IS the best we all know!) The news is bad but at least Mark knows how much they respected him and loved him for all he did. They were forced to lay he and Dennis off(poor Dennis...) ! But as bad as it is... and it is really bad, they are keeping him on for three months, will pay him three more after that, keep us insured for over a year, paying him his bonus, vesting his pension and they also hired a Professional Recruiter to find him a new job.
I am so proud of my husband. He shows such grace and such strength in times such as these. He is my rock... He is OUR rock.
So... our lives will be changing... But I can not fret .. I have faith that our God has his hand in this and that Mark is meant for bigger and better things.... Honestly he is the most brilliant person I have ever met, other than my Grandfather...(they are the same level of brilliance!!)I KNOW he will be placed in a job , a job that was meant for him to flourish and use his talents.
We do need prayers.. It is very hard to see him broken like this... I know he is trying to be strong for us and he is so worried about letting us all down... He could never let us down... no matter what... not possible... !
It is so sweet as he cradles me in his arms and tells me I don't need to worry ... That he will always take care of us... that he will do whatever he needs to in order to do so... I LOVE HIM!!!!!I cherish him.... Thank you GOD for sending him to me!
Do you know how nice it is to be able to count on someone... ? To know that if he says something he means it... I could go on and on... I am sure I will...
I will keep you all updated...Pray for his peace of heart...

I have been working ...and working...and working... I had to work out of the office today... for the first time in over a year... I got to see my friend Beth... I didn't realize how much I miss her! She is my little Hawaii girl...she travels there a couple (or more) times a year... She brought me much comfort today by just being there and listening to me...Thank you Beth... I am so glad that we are friends... that we have each other... even if we don't see each other much...!
I have found as I grow closer and closer to God that my heart softens towards the loved ones in my life... I feel as if I need to tell them all how much they mean to me... what a difference they have made in my life... I have been so blessed with the relationships that God has sent me...

Liz,oh..I need to tell you about Liz.... The strongest woman I know... I don't even know if I have words to express how she has changed me... I just realized it... TODAY!
Her and Kevin have been struggling with their seven year old son Joe, having Cancer. The heartbreak, the constant trips to the hospital for treatment, the not knowing.... every day... Yet she has time to be there for ME! Liz... I love you... Your example of staying strong in times of need, your faith, your love of God.... all have taught me by example...Instead of worrying and fretting I am having faith... Instead of feeling sorrow.. I am finding Peace... knowing God has a plan. You are so special... I hope you know this.. I know how you have suffered in the past... I am so sorry... so so sorry... You are in my thoughts daily, my prayers constantly... You have shown me that you can heal ... that you can go on living....and LOVING!!!!!
I need to tell you about all of them... Ginger, Jennifer, Jenn,Julie, just to name a few... the ones that really have made a DIFFERENCE in my life...
and of course.. Rochelle... thank you Liz..... and Carla...
I want to share them all with you.. Tell you and them how much I love them... People that take time out of their lives when they are hurting and down, and struggling.... to take time to lift you up...REALLY take time... Who stop what they are doing to help you.
God has a plan for our family... I know that... I know I should never grow content... for if I shall I shall need to be shaken by his mighty hand lest I forget who is really in charge...
Well Guys... I am really tired... and it is my BABY GIRLS SIXTH BIRTHDAY TOMORROW:
Her lists of demands are that of a true Princess and of course we must fill every one..
Hide her presents... at least ten... in the kitchen and living room only
Take her to Bearcat Park... then Sonic to Ice Cream...
Childrens Museum on Friday.. then the Omni and Olive Garden,
and MARBLE CAKE with a green candle on top...
Oh... that child is something else... Through all of this she is bringing joy to our hearts...
I love my kids... they are awesome...!
They are all doing all they can to help us get through this difficult time..
Thank ALL of you for your prayers...Please add Dennis Nixon to your prayer lists as well...He is a very good friend of ours...(Our SANTA!) He will need strength as well...
They have helped....
God is GOOD...
Goodnight! (: